Awe, Anxiety, and AI

Navigating the conflicting emotions of this moment in tech

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Phew—hopefully we’re alone here. I want to talk to you about my internal feelings about AI. I’m very excited about it. But I also worry about it. Let me tell you why.

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This weekend, I sat down to watch AlphaGo, a documentary about the eponymous Go-playing AI that beat the reigning Go champion Lee Sedol in 2016. 

Sedol is an easy hero: He’s skilled, intelligent, hardworking, and gracious. He arrived at the match with AlphaGo projecting public confidence that he could beat it handily having studied public demonstrations of its powers.

Go is a 3,000-year-old game that is considered one of the most complicated board games on the planet—orders of magnitude more complicated than chess. Chess has 10123 board positions, while Go has 10360 board positions. There are more board positions in Go than there are atoms in the universe. Go is so complicated that Go masters often can’t explain why they make certain moves. In 2016, the game was considered far out of reach for even the best machine learning models, and so Sedol’s confidence was warranted.

He was wrong. 

From the first move, he got completely smoked by an unfeeling, relentless machine that had no idea who Sedol was or the stakes in the game it was playing. In one particularly poignant moment, Sedol—until this point a calm and collected professional despite the immense pressure he’s under—tapped out of the game for a break. We watch him walk outside the Four Seasons in Seoul to smoke a windy cigarette and clear his mind. Inside, AlphaGo sits waiting like a stone.

Sedol ultimately loses to AlphaGo, 1–4.

Watching Sedol lose his status as best in the world to a machine was like watching a battleship sink a canoe. There’s something almost uncouth about this kind of victory. Humans like to win, but we also like a fair game. 

When AlphaGo calmly snapped Lee Sedol like a twig, I expected to see unsurpassed joy in the faces of its creators: Demis Hassabis and David Silver. Joy, I saw, but I also detected a hint of sadness—and maybe even fear—amid the victory celebration. 

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Even though the documentary was made in 2016, it felt quite relevant to the moment we’re living through right now. Back then, we were watching AI learn to outcompete even the best human Go players. Today, it feels like we’re approaching the same point for many other fields of human endeavor. And watching it happen ignited some conflicting feelings that I’d, so far, not really dealt with.

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On the one hand, I love building with AI and writing about it. I think the promise of intelligent machines is vast. AI presents a tremendous opportunity to help millions of people code, learn to understand ourselves better, advance scientific progress, and hopefully, create broad prosperity and enhanced well-being. 

On the other hand, I worry about it. I could lose my job. Other people could lose their jobs. It has issues with bias and copyright. At the limit, it could kill us all

It’s hard not to wonder how many of us will end up feeling the same things as Sedol did. How many of us will take a lonely walk as we contemplate the idea that we’ll never again be the best at what we do? 


What I’m talking about here is ambivalence—the psychological phenomenon of conflicting feelings. (Ambivalence is popularly used to refer to “not really caring,” but its technical definition refers to internally conflicting emotions.)

Ambivalence is physically painful; some research in psychology suggests ambivalence is even more painful than just purely negative feelings. Humans would rather feel aligned with ourselves. 

Broadly speaking, there are two ways to deal with ambivalence:

  1. Treat it as a problem, and attempt to understand and resolve the conflicting feelings.
  2. Treat it as adaptive by acknowledging that there truly is a reason to feel conflicted—and then choose which feelings to act on.

Psychologically speaking it would be a lot less painful to try to make option one work. I could try to let go of my AI excitement and become an all-out AI doomer, like Eliezer Yudkowsky. Or, try to throw caution to the wind and become an all-out AI booster, like…well, I can’t actually name an all-out AI booster off the top of my head. I am told that these people exist, but I haven’t run into them personally. Even Sam Altman, OpenAI’s CEO, was quoted this week saying, “I think people should be happy that we are a little bit scared of this." Say whatever you want about OpenAI, but it is so unusual for a startup CEO to say that he’s afraid of what he’s building that it would be laughable in almost any other context. Ambivalence seems to be a core part of the psychology of the field as a whole.

My feeling is that, in this case, ambivalence is warranted and adaptive. Even though it’s painful to feel conflicting feelings, the dangers of AI are as real as its promise. Therefore, it’s a good idea to be a little uncomfortable with this stuff. 

So, I choose option two:

I choose to act on my tremendous excitement and energy for AI, despite my worries. 

Choosing to build

Right now, I’m choosing to plant my flag on the side of AI progress. There is a side of me that is tremendously excited by advances like GPT-4 and GitHub Copilot X and Midjourney and Runway. 

In January, I wrote:

“I feel like there’s an 11-year-old nerd in me that is giggling with glee every time I open my laptop these days. When I’m in meetings, I want to stand up and shout, ‘Computers can do incredible things right now!’ When I’m mindlessly scrolling on the subway, I want to log in to Twitter and post in all caps, ‘WHAT WAS IMPOSSIBLE 6 MONTHS AGO IS NOW POSSIBLE.’”

I still feel this way, and I still want to listen to it. My hope is that by participating in this ecosystem, I can help in my own way to make it better and more human—and to steer it away from some of its negative possible consequences.

If that’s the choice I’m making, in order to be truly honest about it, I also have to be clear about something else:

What would convince me to change my mind?

When I might hop off the AI train

Put simply, I believe that the pace of change makes the poison. Intelligent machines that, for example, eliminate most of today’s jobs are not inherently a bad thing if the changes happen slowly enough that we’re able to adapt to them.

The jobs we have today are not the same jobs we had 100 years ago—so knowing that AI might affect them isn’t itself a bad thing.

The thing that might be different about AI is that the pace is too fast and the change is too discontinuous. If, in two years, we get intelligent machines that can automate away every worker and produce better art than any artist living or dead—then the pace of change is way too fast.

People build their lives and make decisions based on a set of promises that society makes about what they’ll get if they behave a certain way. If AI progresses so quickly that it breaks all of those promises all at once and with no warning, it would be unethical and deeply unfair.

I don’t expect progress to happen this quickly, but it could. And if it looks like it’s moving that way, I’ll want to hop off the AI train.

Until then, I’m going to hold on to my excitement. I will also fold my worries up and keep them in my pocket like a little talisman. 

I might need them for later.

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Oshyan Greene about 1 year ago

What's interesting to me is how many people are looking at the AI capability explosion, acknowledging the "oh no, but jobs!" issue, but then *not* acknowledging that, well, AI may actually break Capitalism. And not to be a crazy Socialist here but... would that be so bad? In my view the *true* optimistic perspective, the "best case scenario" of AI *is precisely that*. And I'm very interested in understanding why anyone would argue otherwise. Not that this *will* happen, but that it would be the best case.

In other words if AI can truly do all these things as well as or better than humans, with similar or lesser resource use, if we get to the point where *most* or at least *many* jobs are no longer necessary for humans to do... Then it would seem to make sense to consider what is "beyond jobs". And not *having* to do jobs that many of us dislike seems like a net benefit. It has a *ton* of challenges to work out, of course, but then Capitalism and the systems that sustain it bend over backward on the daily to do this (interest rate shenanigans, bank bailouts, loan forgiveness, health insurance mandates, etc, etc.).

This is something often contemplated and written about in sci-fi, etc. but I think it's important for it to be *more* a part of the current, actual conversation. Some people are definitely talking about it, of course, but many are not and I want to understand why, and to know what the people not talking about this actually think about it (and why).

@michaelelling63 about 1 year ago

"When I’m in meetings, I want to stand up and shout, ‘Computers can do incredible things right now!’" Back to the (late 1990s) future. We're revisiting Internet 1.0 and not learning from our mistakes. AI needs to develop incentives and disincentives to avoid concentration and bias.

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